hey there~

I am back from a long hiatus and also lack of ideas for an appropriate title.

Well well.. how has 2012 been so far for all?

I started mine with a small retreat and time to myself at a nice little hotel.
You might be thinking if I really need that since I was already staying by myself.
Er yes... I did...
I needed to get away from my house because each time I am in it, I just reminded of the chores I need to get done, corners I need to clean etc.... I think I have a slight Obessive impulsive disorder with cleaniness?!
To put it in simple terms, I can't simply ignore something that is put out of its usual place or some dirt on the floor. ( but hey, people often complain I don't wash plates clean enough!)
Whatever it is... I had a good time just curling up reading and not having to worry about anything else at home.

Recently I watched the Korean version of "Playful Kiss". It started off as a Japanese manga, became a drama and then there was the Taiwnese remake too.
I really hated the girl at first because she was like so in love with the guy and giving in to his every whim because she just like him too much to be irritated nor replused.
But she gradually grew onto me because I began to see that she is just being herself and trying her best because she really liked him. She didn't throw herself at him ( like many other girls tried to throw themselves literally at the guy). and even resisted the urge (actually a joke by the guy) to sleep with him because she know it wasn't right.
We always say that we should do our best and have no regrets after that. ( even if we fail) So I don't see why it shouldn't be the same for relationships.
Hurts and discouragements are really inevitable in life. So a healthy dose of courage and risk-taking. And thanks to her, I developed a new motto for the year!

ぼろぼろまで頑張ろう！
今年こそ、暴走しちゃうぞ！

Somehow... I feel that I express myself so much better in Japanese nowadays.
It means something like, I will push myself to my limits... This will be a year I will not hold back? (erm I can tell you in Japanese it just means something 10 times more agressive than that in English)

I don't kind of hold back on what I want to do or buy usually. But I want to do "bigger" things this year.. especially with the impending big 3. Each day is so precious! I just like the bimbotic idea of saying, I did this before I was 3X....

So one of the plans I had and is pushing through now is to visit Hawaii!!

Yes! I have finally stopped saying I want to.. and booked my trip there!
Here I come!

P/s: you usually don't get to know what I want to do until I am sure I can achieve it. hee... I don't love failures and I hate it even more when people ask me about it...